My song for this year

Mel has a word for the year and it is very cool. I have a song for the year because well I am really backsliding.

Run by Kutless (2002)
Why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know I
just, just want to be with you, to be with you
Looking down from above as you watch TV
Wondering why, oh you're ignoring me
Do you remember, remember when i came to you
And you loved me
And i'm waiting for you
And i'm waiting for you
Why do you run, why do you hide oh, don't you know I
just, just wanna be with you, to be with you
Hey, why do you run, why do you hide oh, don't you know
I just, just wanna be with you, to be with you...
Whatever happened to the love, the love you had for me
When you first came to me
Don't you know that i died, died so i could be with you
forever
And i'm waiting for you
And i'm waiting for you
Why do you run, why do you hide oh, don't you know I
just, just wanna be with you, to be with you
Hey, why do you run, why do you hide oh, don't you know
I just, just wanna be with you, to be with you...
Find a place of solitude, and I'll speak to you
As you pray to me
Don't you know I'm waiting here, waiting for you to
read and hear my words
I'm waiting here missing the time the times we shared
oh, please come to me
Why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know I
just, just wanna be with you, to be with you
Hey, why do you run why do you hide oh don't you know
I just, just wanna be with you, to be with you...

Okay, so it isn't a new song but it is new to me. I heard this today on The Word FM and it resonated with me because we were talking about this on Tuesday (before we got sick) at my home group, home fellowship, small group , bible study I just don't know what to call it and I am used to saying homegroup. I was talking about not feeling connected and that i never have the luxury of getting away. Well I got sick stayed home and still did not get into the word. So what is my excuse? I guess it is that I am hiding. But where do you go to hide from God? Duh it's like playing manhunt in the daylight. So he comes after me through everything that I use to avoid him, like music, like TV, like scrapbooking, college, whatever. So I have asked a Christian co worker to be my task supervisor for my fall internship at work for school. I am trying to curb my TV watching, and I am searching for Christian music artists that are post punk grunge metal so that I can still be me. So I discovered Kutless a few years after everyone else but that is okay.

So how did Jesus reach me when I was scrapbooking? I was just getting to that. I am searching for a picture of my grandfather Big Daddy. It is here somewhere but what I found was a little pamphlet on which Pastor Scott Mitchell had written down the date 1/19/1993 and time 10:55 p.m. So today I am celebrating my 16th year as a new believer. Now look back at those highlighted lyrics again. (which I heard today for the first time.) There really is no place to hide from the Lord who loves us.